ridiculous...or psychic?

That would be me today! I've been having weird fluttery feelings in my belly since about 11 am today. Either I'm suffering from some weird nervous disorder or something's going to happen. Perhaps I should call all my friends and see if they're driving anywhere in the rain today? Hey, are you guys being safe out there?

Not only do I despise not knowing how I stand with people, I become very impatient with myself when I get this weird stage fright, prom feeling. That's right, the first time I felt it was right before my date showed up for Junior Prom. It may well have been the fact that I was wearing a hideous pink dress (and I do keep that picture for sentimental reasons), or a nervous sort of mothra-in-the-belly thing.

I mean, I'm all excited and half nervous, and I have no clue why. My hypertension drugs don't do this, they're supposed to SLOW my heart rate, not cause weirdness like this. I haven't taken too much Allegra... it could be the guy who sits behind me, but I'm fairly certain everyone who works here is married. What the F$#@!

So, nothing's happening to me or with the rest of my evening that I know of...hmmm, let's check the horoscope...nope, not a thing. Like those things are really accurate. Every time I read it, I think, vague! and then something happens which could be made to fit that vagueness, which just perpetuates my irrational belief that "Hey, it could be true." But this is the woman that still believes in faeries and princes charming, too. Not real grounded in reality are we?

But darn it, I'm actually really practical. I don't get feeings like this unless I'm meeting someone for the first time, or I'm about to go on stage. I don't even get this feeling for interviews.

So watch this space for happenings, of any sort.