loss of a dream...

What a merry Monday to be had today. In fact it may be, considering that it's nice and gray outside. However, it started off depressing.

I had a lovely dream about a horse. In fact I was at a party or something, and the hosts, which are part of the other theatre I'm involved with over the summers, sometimes, offered me a horse from their stable since I apparently didn't want to take my car. I immediately took to this horse in a big way. Horse and I were fast friends, and I experienced an upwelling and pure adoration for this horse. This is thoroughly unusual, since I'm deathly afraid of horses. I didn't actually ride the orse, but I remember the feeling very very well. So much so that I wept this morning, while utilizing my showercap, for the loss of the feeling, and of the horse.

the horse was dark gray with speckles, dapple I think they're called, and wih a small head and very sweet disposition....

I looked it up and this is what dreammoods.com says about that (click the title of this post, then search for your wacked-out dream symbol):

Horse
To see a horse in your dream, represents a strong, physical energy. You need to tame the wild forces. The dream may imply that you have been horsing around. Or perhaps you need to be less arrogant and "get off your high horse". If you see a dead horse in your dream, then it indicates that something in your life that initially offered you strength is now gone. This may refer to a relationship or situation.

**To see a black or dark horse in your dream, signifies mystery, wildness, and the unknown. You may be taking a chance or gamble at some unknown area.** It may even represents occult forces. If the horse is white, then it signifies purity, prosperity and good fortunes. To dream that you are being chased by a white horse, may be a pun on chaste. Perhaps you are having difficulties dealing with issues of intimacy and sexuality.
To see a herd of wild horses in your dream, signifies a sense of freedom and lack of responsibilities/duties. Perhaps it may also indicated your uncontrolled emotions.
To dream that you are riding a horse, denotes that you will achieve success through underhanded means. You lack integrity. If you are riding a horse that is out of control, signifies that you are being carried away by your passions.